There goes the answer

I was not looking for it, but it came. It might not be the best option, but it was what I needed. It took me a two-hour bus ride from San Carlos City to Bacolod City to finally decide on what to do with my life.

Here it goes:

Law school. Exactly a year ago, I was determined to pursue law school, but well, life happened. I'm still up for it, but then I decided to postpone it for another year or two. Why? One, I cannot make the same mistakes again. I must be prepared with contingency plans if the first one did not work out. Two, I have my doubts (agaaain.) I don't want to head into law school half-heartedly. There can't be half-measures on my part. I can't take the risk and the judgment that comes after if I quit in the middle of law school. Third and probably the most legit reason, my younger sister is going to college this term. Hence, I am stalling law school. It can wait, but my sister's right to tertiary education can't.

Wanderlust. Because of the kick of the doubt, I also decided to search my calling--whatever it is. In order to find that, I will travel the country, searching pieces of myself bit by bit. I will give in to my wanderlust. I must find myself first. And when I do, I'll make a review of my life choices.

Books. I keep buying books, but I don't have the time to read them. Hence, the four-feet tall stash of unread books in my room. This year, I have to make sure that I read at least one book a month just to keep my brain cells from bumming. I can't afford to be stupid if I would go to law school, right?

When I am 64

Monday, as it always turns out, is a bitch.

Even though I am starting to like my work and the things I do in order to forget all the bad things that had had happened to me, I just can't shake off the BV that Monday always brings to me. Hence, the Three Things Rule.

I only do this stuff on my Tumblr account, but since I am starting to practice binge writing again, I've decided to do this here as well. So, here it goes....

1. What is poverty? It is when you, knowing that your mom already sent your allowance through your bank account, check your ATM and find out that the amount still remains the same: PHP 36.00. Do you know what’s worse? It is when you only have Php100 in your pocket and you still have to eat dinner. Story of my life. (PAYSLIP, Y U SO MAILAP?)
2. What is depression? It is when you are asked by several people in different instances the same question: “Are you in law school?” It could have been easier to say, “I dropped out of law school.” But you know you did not. What’s worse? It is when you cannot explain the reason you why stayed in law school for only two weeks. adhasvhavqfheajfb *It’s all coming back, it’s all coming back to me noooow*
3. What is work addiction? It is when you voluntarily take home your work, so that you can forget Number 2.