Smells Like Teen Spirit

Ola! I cannot sleep (but my body is screaming R-E-S-T), that's why I am making a mixtape entitled Gloomy Sunday.

1. Nirvana - Smells Like Teen Spirit
2. Bon Jovi - It's My Life
3. U2 - I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For
4. REM - Everyone Hurts
5. U2 - Stuck in a Moment You Can't Get Out Of
6. Switchfoot - Edge of My Seat
7. Evanescence - All That I am Living For
8. Pink Floyd - Biding My Time
9. The Smiths - How Soon is Now
10. The Beatles - Strawberry Fields Forever
11. Elliott Smith - Passing Feeling
12. Remy Zero - Save Me
13. The Beatles - Help!

What do you think?

I am the Walrus

I am in a limbo.

I am in a limbo, a world where I can do anything I want without any prejudice. I am in a world where everything is calm. Time does not matter here. Nothing is impossible. Everything can happen if I want to. I am the Lord of the Sea, the God of the Sky, the Emperor of Hell. I am everything. In this world, I can be whoever I want to be. I can do whatever I want to do. No restrictions. No holds barred.

I am infinite. I am part of everything, and everything is part of me. I am part of a whole, and the whole is a part of me. In this kind of world that I created, there is no judgment. No concept of right and wrong, moral and immoral, good or bad. There is just humanity. There is just freedom without responsibility. It is freedom in its purest and truest sense. I am free, truly free. I am part of everything, but I am free.

I am the Walrus. I am free. There is no law. No prejudice. No rules to bind me to majority of the human population. I am just me, naked from all the social norms and social responsibilities. Nothing matters, and nothing means anything. I am a floating entity, lost in transition.

Nothingness confuses the mind, emptiness tears the soul. But still, I stay in this kind of world.

My kind of Strawberry Field

"Living is easy with eyes closed."

I survived hell week! A week of agitation and non-existent social life due to hell files. I am just so glad that it's over now. Goddamn lot files. I felt zombie for the entire week. So yeah, that's why I am treating myself with... BEATLES!

Apparently, I have been listening to a lot of Beatles songs since god knows when. But I can't still get enough of this addiction. So, just imagine my glee when The Infidel sent me a copy of Across the Universe starring Jim Sturgess and Evan Rachel Wood.

Well. There's nothing really unique about the storyline of the movie. It is pure crap. Perhaps the writers of the movie were overwhelmed by the greatness of the every song. But! The music is good. The songs are well-chosen. And boy, it is psychedelic. It is rare for any artist to re-do and to give justice to the songs that are bigger than history. But yes, the artists in this movie actually pulled it off. I was amazed at how they did that. They have soul when they sing. They wear their hearts on their sleeves as they say each word in the lyrics. Ahhh. Too much!

I actually like their version of Revolution, I want you (She's So Heavy), Happiness is a Warm Gun, I am the Walrus, Girl, Come together, Hold me tight, A Little Help from my friends, Oh! Darling, While My Guitar Gently Weeps, All We Need is Love, and the medley of Helter Skelter and Across the Universe. I basically like all the versions of Beatle songs in this flick.

The movie in general is so-so. But yeah, I kinda like it because of the songs. I am biased like that.

"High with Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds"

Let's chase the words before they slip away.

Nobody reads my blog entries except from some friends (three friends to be exact). It is not always that they read it, because my compositions can get wordy and dull and because they have no time. That's just fine with me. I prefer it that way.

I write for the sake of writing, not for popularity. I write for myself. I write for the sake of my sanity. I write to exorcise the demon in me. I write to let my mind relax, because I tend to over analyze things. I write, because I am not much of a good speaker. I stutter a lot, and it is only through writing that I get my message across people. I write, because I have a problem with pronunciation, and it is only through words that I get to be sensible. I write for the betterment of myself. I write without intending to be popular. I write just because.

Writing is solitary for me. My thoughts and words are my entirety. So I like it when only few people read what I write. Perhaps you are wondering why I keep an online journal like this if I prefer few people would know what I write. It is as simple as the fact that there's nothing wrong in coping with technology and stuff. I'd like to see one day what I wrote. The old school writing (pen-and-paper) has more soul. I concede to that. But even papers and ink can get washed away by time.

However, you must not think that I have not thought of publishing my first book. Much as I like to have a fewer readers, I'd love to have my writings be published. I'd like to remain anonymous yet known to some. At least. Actually, I have taken much time to think about my first published book.

My first published book will start with "I saw Death." and will end with ""It was my death." or something like that. It will have 300 pages, but no other words will be written aside from the beginning and the end. The "middle" pages will remain blank. That's how I've thought of it. Then, it will become a movie of some sort. Its movie adaptation will be a 2-hour show with nothing but the narration of the starting sentence and the end thought. In short, my first published book will be a two-liner book. Just like that.

Or I do not know. It is still early to tell anyway.

Be the Starr of my life

Hell Yeah I Love Ringo Starr!

For the past days, I have neglected my Beatles duty. I have not heard Yellow Submarine and Octopus Garden in a week. I have not stalked Ringo Starr for the past few weeks. This is not good. Seriously. Is my fixation slowly turning into a thing of the past? Oh no no no. Time to get my head on the game. LOL. Whatever, Ringo Starr is still my favorite Beatle.

P.S.:

I only put this picture on my blog just to give life and color to the dull words I have written (which no one reads anyway).