The Return

Hi there, Stranger!

It's been months since I last updated this blog. Sorry for the unexpected hiatus. I know that I vowed to write more last year. Apparently, that didn't happen. Instead, I found myself caught in a terrible hangover that was 2011. To be more vague, life happened.

So... This year, I will not promise anything that is related to writing. I will just blog if and when my schedule and my brain permit me. I know I have to explain my absence, but I'm tired of it. Besides I have the habit of leaving the blogosphere every now and then, returning only whenever I feel the need to exorcise the demon in my head.

Anyway, since I'm in the mood to blabber about my weird and boring life, let me give you a list of the things that I did (or at least as I remember them) this January 2012.

1. Tried to get wasted by drinking alcohol nonstop from 9:00PM December 31, 2011 to 12:30PM January 1, 2012. Goal achieved? No. Didn't get wasted.
2. First day of work. Updated my journal (the tangible) and assessed 2011.
3. Woke
4. Up
5. Everyday
6. To
7. Work.
8. Didn't
9. Remember
10. Much
11. Of
12. It.
13. Went somewhere to do a personal errand.
14. "Closure." I wasn't asking for one, but it happened. I wasn't looking for it, it came to me. I just realized that I got to do what I need to do. It was not easy, but it was what I needed. Principles > Matters of the Heart, that's always my rule. Aside from that, I went to Zambales with high school friends (in which case, we call ourselves "Team Malaysia"). Though we were "na-Juno," we still pushed through it.
15. "Let's get lost in the haze of our childhood dreams and bask in moments of stolen freedom." Day 2 of our Zambales trip. Went to Potipot Island and slept the whole day. Tiring day.
16. Monday Routine with Sasha, Tin, and Beerday Boy Aris. I didn't get drunk, sad.
17. Busy day at the office. Multitasking will be the death of me.
18. "It gets better everyday." <3
19. Flaming Wings with Beks and Phen + Caffeine boost.
20. "I'll be here, wishing I could be there." Tea Party with Faith while Franz Ferdinand was in my ears.
21. "I am the man." Saturday. I did some house chores and watched She's the Man.
22. Hazy. Went out to do some personal errand. Went to Tin's to grab free dinner.
23. Happy birthday, Mom! To the strongest and coolest person I know, cheers to another year of dealing with my shenanigans.
24. "Drunken stupor makes me forget." Mandarin Wok with officemates.
25. "You just get used to it." Had Ze Talk with Faith.
26. "It gets better, right?"
27. Today, I wrote my first blog entry for 2012. Hooray?

There you go. Four days left until the first month of this year is over. Soon, it'll be Valentine's Day already, which means... Cagayan de Oro trip! I hate to anticipate, but I know that 2012 is going to be better. Right?

When I am 64

Monday, as it always turns out, is a bitch.

Even though I am starting to like my work and the things I do in order to forget all the bad things that had had happened to me, I just can't shake off the BV that Monday always brings to me. Hence, the Three Things Rule.

I only do this stuff on my Tumblr account, but since I am starting to practice binge writing again, I've decided to do this here as well. So, here it goes....

1. What is poverty? It is when you, knowing that your mom already sent your allowance through your bank account, check your ATM and find out that the amount still remains the same: PHP 36.00. Do you know what’s worse? It is when you only have Php100 in your pocket and you still have to eat dinner. Story of my life. (PAYSLIP, Y U SO MAILAP?)
2. What is depression? It is when you are asked by several people in different instances the same question: “Are you in law school?” It could have been easier to say, “I dropped out of law school.” But you know you did not. What’s worse? It is when you cannot explain the reason you why stayed in law school for only two weeks. adhasvhavqfheajfb *It’s all coming back, it’s all coming back to me noooow*
3. What is work addiction? It is when you voluntarily take home your work, so that you can forget Number 2.

I Will

Today, I will make a list.

Since my career and love life are heading nowhere, I decided to make some changes in my ever monotonous life. I think, it is not yet too late to make a list of things I'd like to do this year to change the course of my life a little different from last year. Let me call this... Mid-year resolution.

Here's the list of things I intend to accomplish/do before 2011 ends:

1. Ride a plane. Whenever I think of airplanes, I think of death. It's normal.
2. Talk to strangers. When I was a bit younger, my mom always told me not to talk to strangers. If only she knew how socially awkward I am right now, she would not say that. (Talk to strangers = Meet new people)
3. Go and see a cadaver up close.
4. Watch a movie alone.
5. Say I love you to people who matter to me. And not to cringe or even laugh after doing so.
6. Go bald. Or have a really short hair.
7. Get a tattoo: All that and more.

Wish me luck!