Disillusionment.

The world is harsh.

I have said this many times before, especially on the events where I could not do something to give justice to some things or some people. I feel obligated to feed the hunger of the world, to protect the rights of people who cannot protect themselves, to advocate indigenous peoples rights, to relieve the world from poverty, inequality, and injustice, to empower marginalized people, and to do something just. I feel that it is my duty to do something in order to save the world (or at least my country) from further deterioration. I should do something to make things better for my fellowmen, that's what UP education has taught me.

"Save the nation through oblation." as the UP shirt said once. And I plan to live up to it. I want to serve my fellowmen who sent me to a good university. I want to pay back the country that housed me since time immemorial. I want to save my nation through oblation.

But. I have to face the truth. No matter how much I wanted to change the world and no matter how hard I work for its betterment, there are certain things in this world that still remain to cause conflict. For instance, corruption, inequality, and injustice (things which may result in poverty).

Corruption is every where, not just in the government. It lives in everyone's house. It happens when the parents bribe the children with money just to go to the nearest store to buy something. It happens when the children take the excess money when they were asked to buy in the grocery. It happens when the children steal money from their parents' wallets. It happens when the household engages in "reward system". Corruption exists since time immemorial. It exists, not just in the arena of politics, in every social institution. It is a fact of life. And it is sad.

And just like corruption, inequality and injustice have been existing for only-god-knows-when. These things, which the "presidentiables" promise to alleviate, are already a fact of life. And it will take a very looooooong time to ease these. It might even take centuries to get rid of these things because as long as there is capitalism and greed, these things will exist.

Nobody wants to be poor. And the world is simply harsh. Though I can do something about it, I cannot change it. I simply cannot.