Do not hate.

Hate is such a heavy word.

So I decided that I don't hate you. I just don't like you. AT ALL.

You are know-it-all, bossy, and mean. You feel like you know all the things in the world, like everything you say is something I should believe. You are so smart that you could shit books. You know this, you know that. You say I should do this and that because I am still "young" blah blah blah. You say, "I have read this book that says shit that shit this. You should read it because that is the only book in the world that can give you that kind of knowledge." I mean really. Do you expect me to believe every word that you say? Come on. It is not as if I can't fucking read and understand. It is not as if I haven't gone to some library. I know how to read. And I can understand. You know what is wrong with you? You tend to believe whatever you read and learn, and make it your reality. I am sorry to burst your bubble but I process whatever I read and learn, and am careful which to believe and which not to believe. Yeah, news for you.

And another thing, don't treat me or any of my family like shit, because you are not smart enough yourself. You are not a fucking god, so don't act like one. You actually don't have the right to treat me or anyone like your slave. You can't just boss me around like you used to. I've been there, done that. I am tired of being around someone like you. I am tired of kissing your fat ass every time you are around. I am tired of you bossing around anyone. I guess it is partly my fault that I have been so kind and submissive to you back then. Maybe that is because I was young then, and I did not have a clear disposition of myself. It is partly my fault that I let you treat me like some shit, and to bully me like that. But I have grown to be a critical thinker now (thanks to UP education). I know now when to say yes and when to say no. I realized I should not render myself to your highness because you are capable of doing whatever that you are asking me to do. It is just that you are so lazy and bossy, and that you just like to assert your "power" over me. But I have good news for you, you can start picking up after your crappy self, because I will not do it for you. You are old enough to do that, and I think you should start acting according to your age.

I would also like to add that you are mean to the people around you. You feel and act like the whole world revolves around you. You say things to people without even thinking (because thinking is beyond your capability) if you will hurt them with your words. You are so mean that you could pass as a typical antagonist in Filipino teleserye. You hurl words that could hurt anyone. You just love to talk, and you can't help but say anything you want. You say, "Person X is such a bitch because blah blah blah." Hello, earth calling you. Have you ever looked at yourself? You are the bitch personified. You are also shallow. You base your judgment on the physical characteristics of a person. You don't look beyond that. You look down on people, because no one can ever be more beautiful and more perfect than you. Reality check, you are not even pretty.

Plus, could you stop pinpointing my faults? You say that my hair is fucked up. You say it every time you have the chance. I know it okay? You don't have to say it every time you can, I am not slow. And could you please stop pulling my hair whenever you feel like "naglalambing"? Because it is not funny, and it is not something you should do to me because I don't like it when someone pulls my hair. And could you please stop acting clean and that you can't do wrong? Because you are not a saint. You are far from it, seriously.

I really don't like you, because you don't respect anyone. You have no concept of that, because you are high and almighty. I have heard of what you did and said to my mom. I have known it every since I got back from my fieldwork, and I didn't do anything about it (which I really regret until now) because I wasn't there when it happened. But you know what? Even though I wasn't there that time, I can imagine what really happened. It is beyond my duty to understand why you did that, but I did. Simply because I am giving you your last chance to redeem yourself. And you burned it. You are so proud and just so mean that you did not even apologize to my mom days and weeks after the incident. And now you have the guts to show your proud crappy face to me as if nothing happened? An apology could have worked, but knowing you... You would not even dare explaining yourself. That was your last chance; I am not giving you one anymore.

What you have said to my mom is simply unforgivable. You don't have the right to simple trashed my mom like that, because you are not even half of what she is. You can't just say (insert unkind adjectives aka curses here) in her face, because she is not as fucked up as you are (I think I don't have to elaborate how doomed you are and your life is now).

You make a terrible liar, you should know that. So please stop acting like you don't know what is going on. Stop acting like you care for anyone, because you don't really care about anyone but yourself. You lie for your own good. You lie to serve your own convenience. You cut the details, and add some. You alter the facts, and you manipulate them to serve you good, to make you appear like a saintly saint. You don't care what the costs are when you lie. You just lie, because you know it will be to your own benefit. I mean, how could you lie brutally? It is okay to lie sometimes, but to use another person and lie about it for your own freaking sake? That is different thing. You are a terrific liar that I do not believe anything that you say. You are one selfish and heartless bitch (I am dying to say this to your face, really). You should know that.

I hope you can read this shit. This is just some of what I wanted to say about you because I do not like you at all. I don't hate you. I just don't like you. And I wish you rot in hell.

Okay, I hate you.